I am 44 years old and have had 2 serious relationships, each lasting more than 10 each. I have not been in a relationship in the last 3 years. However, the last 8 years of that relationship were not good and we did not have sex. I'm embarrassed to say that I stayed even though my needs were definitely not being met. Despite having been in these relationships I have never been able to let loose completely during sex. I wonder if that is because I'm inhibited or just not having the right kind of sex with the right per. I do admit to not being completely comfortable with myself. I'm overweight for one and have had a few bad sexual experiences that have messed with my head a little. I'm ready to move on and want to learn what it means to be submissive. I have a feeling that this has always been part of my problem. This kind of makes me sound like a loser but I believe in being honest. I am a natural redhead but don't have the typical temper that goes along with it until I'm really pissed off. Lol. Although I tend to blurt out whatever I'm thinking. I'm pretty easygoing and enjoy meeting new people and going new places. To be honest I suck at these kinds of "describe yourself" questions.